Lack of Inspiration

Everything has become very routine, wake up, breakfast, lunch, piano, mandarin lesson, dinner, online, Big 2, take pills, sleeep.  I also don't like my panic attacks that wake me up, I need little blue pills to calm me down.  I hope God can somehow make me a better man out of this.  My theory is that the highs and the lows I witnessed were to provide me with a practice for what might come in the future.  Just a thought.   Exciting events are coming up.  Wedding Saturday between Jon and Ling.  Gonna turn up in my best attire, despite the heat.

I was also excited by the prospect of joining a tight knit fixed gear bike community.  It seems a little far fetched and dangerous but I'm still curious.

I can't wait to get back on regular meds.  I can't wait to get back to work.

I think I've probably finally come back down to earth and come to terms with what is going on in my life.  I am bipolar so that means my general personality and moods tend to follow a certain pattern.  Easy example, I tend to keep things to myself and not share as much.  I am sharing now.  I've calmed down and realized that my episode stole away my time with my girlfriend and also made many people worried about me.  I am in good hands, I feel that with prayer, caregroup and church and my faith in Christ my improvement has been much faster.  I am always thankful for finding a good doctor too and I am thankful that God is working so amazingly through him.

I've also come to terms with my break up with my girlfriend, Esther.  I don't regret asking you out, because I would have missed out on the experiences I had with you.  I hope I can be a good friend for you, despite being bipolar, although I'm sure you can make many more friends in Taiwan.  I miss you.

Graffiti Journey

All thanks to this site: http://www.legal-walls.net/walls/627

Found this nice little spot:



American football vs. British/International football

From Graffiti Jouney

Walking to our destination

From Graffiti Jouney

Ooooooh...





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I want to do 'brain' something like those guys ^



Homeless people...





He has a stove






Streetpoint view of the alley



Brain '10b



brain '10

Someone beat me to my idea!

http://www.toiletinspector.com/

Actually...still none for HK...so I can start a website maybe!

Brainstorm

I love the word brainstorm.
For me when I brainstorm my brain literally becomes a manic centre in my head.
My thoughts from all corners are connected by electricity and the flashes of electricity contribute to the literal storm.  When I brainstorm I try to conjure my manic energies and use them for a good purpose; to come up with new ideas that might help myself or others.

My Blog's Metaphorical Death and Rebirth

My girlfriend and I ended our relationship sometime last week. We're still good friends but the timing was right. This frees up many things but one of those things is this blog.  It has been stagnant and stale.  I have failed to provide an interesting and artistic log of my life through this blog.  Therefore, as with my relationship, my blog has died.  But it has risen again, like the new friendship with my ex (I hope she sees it the same way).  I am now able to write about anything since my audience has widened greatly.  Hopefully my blog can be seen by many eyes and inspire others artistically.

Lots of photos. No title. I guess when I'm in a better emotional state I can give a better reflection on events of late.